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in this issue...

Personal Essay
Where Lies, The Meaning
By Suzanne Farrell

Short Meditations
Uncertainty
Wings in Darkness

By Carlos Figueroa

Short Story
Monster in Your Forest
By Brian Jefferson

Social Commentary
Behind Closed Doors: The Secret Consumption of Sex
By Angela Jones

Confessions
The Conversation I Will Never Have With Chuck Klosterman
By Ellen Killoran

Ethnography
Selections From the (not so) Secret Life of Blogs
By Robin Lester

Selected Poems
Truth be Told
The Plaintiff

By Israel Loeb

Poetry
the madman and the night
By Shaun Nanavati

Selected Poems
Sky Spot
Asbury Park Summer Day
I Hate to Eat Fish

By Steve Newman

Politics & Religion
Defining Secularism
By Serdar Paktin

Selected Poems
Ode to Atheism
Images of Philosophy, Pt. One

By K. Jody Rucks

Prose Poem
War Porn 3: i like america and america likes me
By Roy Scranton

Memoir
The Russian Army
By Justin Wolf


the madman and the night

By Shaun Nanavati

 

When the moon is full
And the tide pulls away
Is there a separation of anxiety
or a single tangled lunar sway?

“Come close.
Please dispel this dry ache,”
Says the moon with subtle passes and long glances
As he crosses the night sky.
Alone, he spins, reflects, travels and dances
Unaware of a distant, yearning sigh.

When the moon approaches the zenith
And no longer touches the distant crest,
The ocean wonders aloud with the intent of shared breath:
“Is all this an episode to dismiss
or a prelude to a kiss?”

Now, as the moon descends, the scientists will say:
“The moon has simply shifted from view.”
However, those initiated, intoxicated and engulfed by the whirlpool’s fray
Know - not from deduction - but an experience true
That the moon has dissolved, swallowed by the clearing
And has now entered the ocean’s greater being.

 

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Shaun Nanavati has been telling stories all his life. He was formerly the editor of The Catalyst while an undergraduate at Bucknell, where he was influenced profoundly by the beats Ginsberg, Kerouac, Gary Snyder, and Paul Bowles. Chasing the ghost of Jack Kerouac, he spent five psychonautically-inspired years in Boulder where he was a journalist for The Boulder Weekly. He is now a graduate student in Psychology at the New School and can be occasionally found sharing adventures from his youth at coffee shops and pubs throughout the West Village.